| Could you really fall in love with two people at the same time? |
[Sep. 3rd, 2007|09:39 pm] |
| [ | Tags | | | love | ] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | sta. rosa | ] |
| [ | Feeling |
| |  contemplative | ] |
*This is actually a reply to a post of one of my friends
weird? no not really... loving 2 people at the same time.. yeah romantic love.. is it possible? well, I've always thought of love as a two-part thing. the feeling and the choice. The feelings.. well.. there's the shady/gray part. What do we know about feelings? Nothing. We can't control them at all. They can be suppressed from seeing the light of day, sometimes you could fool yourself into thinking that you're feeling something else, but they are still there. In this way, you can love so many people. Although, some might also THINK that they are really in love with a lot of people, but the others are just infatuations or errr.. fake. True love, in this way, I think, never fades, it just mellows down sometimes.
The other part of love is the choice to love. There's always that choice. It's not that out loud choice that says: "I will love ___". It's that deep deep choice to love. To choose. This could be why some relationships fail- there was not enough choice, not enough resolve to go through. At the first sign of love mellowing down, as I said previously, some people think: "That's it, we're done. Goodbye." But if the choice is really made, and the resolve strong, then things will work out, given that both of them are like that, "It takes two to tango". It really sucks to see one of the partners truly in love, giving his/her life for the other person, while the other person is already gone..
but what happens when you've chosen to love someone, and start to feel something for someone else? what happens, when those feelings are love? Isn't this already loving 2 people? Well, yeah slightly. But when you're truly on the edge, you don't know which way to go.. stay with your current choice.. or choose to love that new person... that's confusing. You question everything that you feel, that you've felt, that you will feel. You re-evaluate your choice, think of the pros and cons... and in the end.. you still don't know what to do. I said before that love is a 2-part thing... in this case.. is it that you love two people at the same time? Or you don't love either? Well... I don't know... |
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| Rain |
[Aug. 8th, 2007|08:52 am] |
| [ | Tags | | | rain | ] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Sta. Rosa | ] |
| [ | Feeling |
| |  mellow | ] |
| [ | Listening to |
| | Pitter-Paterring of the Rain | ] |
I like rain.
The way it falls down, pitter-pattering on the roof.
I can't help but sit down and just watch the rain as it hits the window,
As each drop hits the pavement and explodes into little smaller ones.
It's times like these that you just want to stay in bed...
And just cuddle...
Pillows would be just fine,
But cuddling with someone special would be so much better.
You could just talk about anything and nothing at all
Just keep each other company.
A kiss here, a hug there.. keeping each other warm
Until you both just fall asleep
And then you wake up, it's still raining
You see that special someone beside you
Silently sleeping, so calm
And you can't help but smile the biggest smile you can
And realize what a lucky person you are
To be waking up next to an angel.
I like rain.
How it's so easy to think.
The soothing lullaby it makes.
How the cool breeze calms the nerves.
The way it makes you want to just lay still.
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It just sucks how rain is a two-edged sword, especially here in the Philippines where floods are the norm. When I was a kid, I'd always wish for rain so classes would be suspended. So that we could "take a bath" in the rain -- although that would be more of singing and dancing for us. As I got older, I loved the rain no less, but it started to get inconvenient, especially when I had to go out on a rainy day. Whenever it rained, I never wanted to leave where I was. Like staying wherever I was was the right thing to do. But thinking about all the people being affected by floods.. Houses underwater, or taken away by the flood-tides.. Lives changed and taken away.. It's depressing when you think about it that way. But life goes on. We can't do anything about what has happened, we can only do the best we can to stop it from every happening again. Anything, that happens, happens. I just thank God that it wasn't me or my loved ones and to ask Him to help those families who's lives will be forever changed.
But on the brighter side, I really just want to hug and kiss and cuddle right now... I wish I wasn't so far in Laguna right now... |
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| Resurrection |
[Aug. 6th, 2007|07:21 pm] |
I'm back. Well, for this post anyway. I wonder what I'll start to write this time. I don't want this to die, but I don't really feel like telling the story of the past year (well more) of my life.
Just a status update for those who might want to know, I'm currently a regular employee of SAP Philippines, I started last April 16. I'm a BW/XI Consultant -- well that's what's on my business card, but right now, I'm more of an ABAP/BW consultant. Anyway. I'll try to revive this, one way or another.
At the moment, I'm in Laguna for a project. We're given housing and transportation service, so it isn't so bad. But, I'm so far from home. I feel like I'm rotting here. Wah life. oh well. I need to get back to exercising, I'm getting fat again. I need to study for certification. I need to fix my stuff, they're still in my bag.. hmmm (sorry, just rambling haha)
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Wow, I write when I'm not depressed again. Yey! :D Things are looking up.. :D That's all for now...
I'm deciding which blog I'm keeping alive.. or will regularly update.. hmm.. |
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| Recurrence |
[Jun. 27th, 2006|11:31 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Limbo | ] |
| [ | Feeling |
| | Lost | ] |
| [ | Listening to |
| | The hum of the A/C | ] |
I should really get out of this habit - only posting when I'm not happy. I will try soon enough... *sigh*
Actually, I have no real reason to be sad right now, well not current real reason anyway. I guess I'm just reliving a past hurt. I really don't know why I'm doing this. It all started with an e-mail... I can't describe what I'm feeling right now anymore... I try to think of how to explain it, but.. I just can't... I wish some things never happened... but, they say that these things make us stronger - if they don't kill us. Right now though, I can't really say if that's what happened. I just feel the bad feelings coming back again.
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There comes a time in one's life when things aren't as sure as everything used to seem. And after that time, everything's different again. Whether it was one's perception that changed, or everything else changed - well, that's not important. What's important is that we still survive and we still go on. But reliving, even just in the mind, those dark times, will hurt as much as it used to. Here's where forgetting comes in handy. The problem is, it's nearly impossible to forget such things.
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This just came out. Weird. My brain just told my fingers to type, and there it was. Yeesh. Talk about inspiration... Don't you think inspiration sounds so much like a positive word? Well, not really.... People are "inspired" to hurt and kill too...
I can't understand my current state... I don't know. I feel lost again. But heck, what's new? I'm always lost.. Just sometimes, I forget that I really am lost. Maybe that's how we all live our lives. There really is no direction. Maybe we're all lost. We just make things up so we forget that we really are lost. That's just sad though. I better start making things up again. Getting busy. Getting a "life" as people living on this world say. |
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| Issues |
[Feb. 24th, 2006|11:48 pm] |
| [ | Feeling |
| |  restless | ] |
Life's full of issues.
There's that rally "commemorating" EDSA; the reason for the cancellation, not only of classes, but of work as well. There's the La Nina. There's the landslide. Economic issues. So many issues-- some easier to solve than others. What gets me is that some people create these issues, or capitalize on them, when it just aggravates everything else. The rally for example. A lousy excuse for people power. The first one was noble. The second, already bordering on madness. This one, just plain loony. Marcos, although brilliant, was just too mean. Erap.. well Erap was just too.. I don't know.. stupid? He shouldn't have been there, he only got there because he was an actor. Now Gloria. No doubt she's better than Erap. Not the best, probably corrupt as well, but better. She's doing an okay job in my opinion, just too many people making her life hell. The opposition. Yeesh. All their oposing right now is progress, however slow it may be. At any rate, I just wanted to put that out. Not all my thoughts are here yet (might edit in the future.. hehehe), but that generally sums up what I think. Now I was actually going to right about another issue...
It's funny how "less important" issues (relative to the national environment of course) seem more important to a select few.
ANYWAY :P
Celadon. One of the best organizations that I have been in. Home to many people. People of different backgrounds, but united as well. Diverse and dynamic. SYNERGISTIC. Now however an issue has come up. elections failed twice already, so the Celadon COMELEC appointed the new officers. A controversy has emerged because of their appointments. Personally, I believe that the process was correct. The constitution need not be changed. what I'm actually worried about is bias. Well not exactly bias... deceit? no... not that either... hmm.. closer to bias I think. At any rate, I think that some (or all) of the COMELEC officials were misguided - in one way or another. Don't get me wrong, it's no that I don't believe in those appointed. It's just that the results were definitely not expected (by the more vocal of the members, nor those who ran and were passed up). If I didn't know the comelec personally, I probably would think that those who were passed up were just sour-graping. But I do. And I have no doubt in their skill, but I still have a bad feeling about their decisions, which (for me) tend to be opinionated. And some are easily swayed. What I'd like really, is just the assurance that their decision-making was sound. A transcript of the whole session would be great, but more importantly, an essay from each official, describing both candidates, giving pros and cons, and in the end giving the reason why he/she chose that candidate. Yun lang. After that, I'll say kung okay nga yung decision nila, or masyadong biased. Then I will rest. Whatever the outcome. But this'll never happen I think.. hehe
----IRRATIONAL SELF---- (well, not irrational. just more... biased.. haha)
Anyway... unofficially... there was a reasoning that said na may hindi kasundo sa batch before.. pero yung nagsabi nun.. well.. let's just say nakasundo nya yung mga before kasi yung mga before ubod talaga ng bait at tactful sila. Thing is.. SIYA yung problema.. hindi yung kandidato. Saya noh? |
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| Shadow |
[Aug. 30th, 2005|12:10 am] |
| [ | Feeling |
| |  drained | ] |
A shadow walks through the night..
Unseen, unheard, unnoticed as it put one foot in fron of the other.
A shadow in the dark, screaming for attention..
Until it realizes that no one will ever know it was there.
A shadow standing in the night..
Observing, seeing yet undetected...
Silently keeping watch over everything...
A shadow in the dark, thinking, doubting..
Is it really there, part of the darkness that fills the night?
Insignificant, unperceived, out of sight either way.
A shadow slumped in the night...
Waiting, waiting, waiting for attention..
Daybreak comes, the shadow rejoices that it will be soon..
A shadow in the dark.. no more!
The darkness disappears as light returns...
And so does the shadow.. still unseen, unheard, unnoticed and out of sight. |
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| realizations |
[Aug. 2nd, 2005|08:21 pm] |
| [ | Feeling |
| |  blank | ] |
When I really really want (and need) to sleep, but I can't or don't, I'm like this...
And the less people talk, the less problems arise... |
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| Wtf? |
[Aug. 1st, 2005|10:18 pm] |
| [ | Feeling |
| |  annoyed | ] |
Can't take it? Then don't. Fine with me.
I can be as rock solid as any other heartless bastard out there. |
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| ... |
[Jul. 27th, 2005|06:48 pm] |
not the best of times for me...
unneeded and unnoticed... but worth so much? not a chance.
alone. that's it. alone. amidst everyone. amidst the crowd, all the chatter and noise, solitude remains.
feeling like shit? not at all.. just feeling nothing... numb to everything. numb to life. |
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